I Am A Person

How did I get this way? 

Once outspoken

Confident

and cheerful

the child within me 

has vanished

What makes me bitter

unhappy 

and undeserving?

I am faced with so many 

questions and decisions

Where is my faith in God? 

Did I lose it with my sense of self? 

I struggle to gain my independence  

to become my own person

but I am scared that 

I cannot stand on my own two feet

While held up 

by my family and my faith

I could face any obstacle

And as these pillars 

are pulled out from under me

I feel so fragile

In my darkest times

these supports have kept me alive

What crazy horror 

could ensue with their absence? 

I reach out 

and one lone hand is there 

to catch me

hold me 

and love me

Without it I would fall

Silent tears run down my face

full of worries

fears

and hope

So much rests in your hands

I am sorry to give you

such a large burden

I understand 

my responsibilities 

what I need to get done

I will show the world

I am a person

No more motions

of daily activities

I live MY life now

Please stand there beside me                                                                                                                      

I love you

and trust you.